Not going to waste much time

there is so much information I can dump on here, but I don't care to rehash all of it, so this is what I have to say: Making your children your first priority does not mean leaving them while they are frightened and crying, screaming and pleading with you not to go. Who cares how far you have to drive.  Who cares that you don't want to spend the night in this house. Who cares? because it should be your child and his needs that you care about; not your own.  HA! you want them for a day or a weekend when you can't even console or take care of them for a night. Make your choices and stick with them, but I am sick of your lip service when your actions fall short time and time again.  Either be a dad or don't. As for now, don't bother showing up until you know how to make these children your top priority.