With everything that has been going on in my life I have found it very difficult to get into the Christmas spirit; especially today when we walked through our apartment for the last time. Upon leaving I have to admit I was feeling sorry for myself, becoming overwhelmed with everything we would have to replace. We then went to the mall to let Dorian see Santa, and for me the depression seemed to deepen as stores tried to push holiday merchandise; merchandise at this point that we can’t afford. I was feeling sorry for all that we lost and all that we can’t have.
Josh suggested we go to a nativity exhibit tonight and although I was feeling anti-Christmas, I agreed to go. While I was looking at all the different pieces I became emotionally overwhelmed with how selfish I was being. Here in front of me was the perfect example of what everything was about: Jesus was born in the most humble of places and his birthday is celebrated because of the life he lived as well as the eternal life he gave us. So despite my circumstances I should be thankful for the opportunity the Lord has given us to humble ourselves and thank him not only for my mortal life, but the eternal life he gave me by living his own.
I also remembered that Christmas is also about giving of ourselves and due to our circumstances I felt as though we had not been able to do that, but realized others had been able to do that for us; So to all those who have helped us in any capacity, thank you so much and Merry Christmas.
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