So Blessed to Have a Four Day

Due to Columbus Day Josh has had Friday and Monday off, which could not have come at a better time.  My contractions are getting stronger and while they still are not close enough to go in, they are uncomfortable enough and strain my back enough to pretty much put me out of commission.  Meaning that for the last four days he has been on child duty and he has done an amazing job at meeting our sons needs while taking care of me.  It has been a really long time since I have felt he has taken care of me, so the last couple of days have been really wonderful and although I am not looking forward to him returning to work tomorrow, I will be able to rely on my mom as she is due to arrive tonight.

I am now to the point I am far enough along, I would rather have this baby on the scheduled date so that I can prepare go in and be in charge.  Also, because my doctor is out of town this week and I would really like for her to deliver my baby.  However, I say it is a fifty-fifty chance though just depending in my body.  At my last check up I was dilated to 1cm (solving the earlier mystery).  My doctor was surprised at how my baby girl was position though as she is up over my pelvic bone.  My doctor commented that it was a good thing we had the c-section scheduled because she didn’t think this baby would be able to come vaginally even if I wanted to.  She also explained that this would most likely make my contractions more painful as it is just grinding the baby into my hip bone (which explained a lot of the hip and back pain that had been a lot more severe this pregnancy).  She wasn’t sure if I would dilate or not due to this, but made sure I was aware that the baby was right where they opened me up for my emergency c-section with my son and that if I went into labor (even before hard labor, she said around 3-4cm) I needed to come in for fear of the baby tearing me open.  Other than that though the baby was healthy and everything else looked good.  So now it is just waiting through this last week and a half of misery before I get to hold that sweet little bundle in my arms.  I am getting excited and look forward to breast feeding as I had to wean my son at four or five months because he couldn’t digest my milk.  I am to the point I am excited to be having a girl and to be able to watch for her personality and watch her grow.  I am ready to be a mom to an infant again and to feel the miracle and great presence every newborn holds within them.