Rough Morning

Lets be honest.  Every morning is a fight.  Every morning I pull myself out of bed and I fight the day, my life, my emotions, all to try and be the best mom I can be and many days I fail.  I yell, I get frustrated, we watch more TV that we should, and the activities have fallen by the wayside.  I fight every single day with all that I have and usually I can look at the positive and see the progress and be content with my own life as I take charge.  This morning, however, was a very different story.  I just didn't care.  I was sick of fighting, sick of trying and for what, sick of carrying it all.  Today I wanted to run away and not come back.  Today I wanted to sacrifice my life, my responsibility, and even my morals if I could feel good for once, even if it was fleeting.  A dear friend texted me this morning checking in on me and I shared the horrible, brutal truth of how I was feeling.  His words were just what I needed to hear and a boon as I continued on in the tasks of my day.  This afternoon I was surprised to hear the doorbell and even more surprised to see flowers delivered.  As I am living with my mom I assumed they were for her and jumped in surprise as I signed for them, that they were in fact for me.  My heart burned with emotion and gratitude at the gesture and I ran inside to read the card: you are enough.  I broke down there in the kitchen holding the beautiful arrangement of flowers.  Those three words brought more comfort than the two hours I had just spent reading the scriptures searching for peace.  This friend, not only was inspired with his words, but with his gesture and he has no idea what a angel he was as he brought me the peace and comfort I was so desperately searching for.  I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life and who have been a rock while the storm of my life blows around me. The love I feel is the only thing helping me get out of bed every morning.  I love you all and only hope you all know just how much I love and appreciate you.  Thank you just isn't enough for the gift I received today.