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Well I know it has been a long time since I have updated about myself. I will give the bullet points to explain why I have been MIA.  Basically, my children and myself have all been sick since early to mid January. No matter what medicines, sleep, or rest we got none of us could fight this nasty virus.  I almost had to take Amellia to the ER, I did take Dorian to the ER and I, well I am still dealing with it.  We went in to the doctor yesterday as the kids had finished off their antibiotics and wanted to ensure their ear infections were gone.  Both are still borderline.  Meaning both still have red ears, but they aren't bulging the way they were.  My doctor cautioned doing a second round of antibiotics with children, so I am watching them closely, trying as best I can to do a nasal saline in hopes it clears the drainage the infection has been eating on.  Now for me: for those of you who don't know, I lost complete hearing in my right ear about two and a half weeks ago.  After a couple of days of that I knew I had to go into the doctor.  I was diagnosed with a double ear infection and bronchitis.  I was put on antibiotics...which did nothing.  Then they switched me to a new antibiotic that learned up my cough, but I still could not hear.  So when I went in yesterday it was confirmed that my ear infection still had not cleared up and I am now on my third round of antibiotics and a steroid spray.  I have already been referred to a specialist though as my doctor is seriously concerned about permanent hearing loss.  As many of you know it is exhausting and almost impossible to take care of sick kids, especially when sick yourself and I have now been doing this for the last 6 weeks.  Not to mention I have had issues with my car, applying for Medicaid, trying to pay bills, etc.  Life has hit me hard the last couple months and because I have been so sick, I have not been able to go to the gym = no release = depression.  I feel like I am finally crawling out of my hole though and pulling myself up by the boot straps to get done what is needed, especially the things that need to be done prior to the divorce, such as signing over the title and getting new plates, etc.
However, I am still looking forward to 2014 and all the things it has to offer despite the crappy start:
*tomorrow I am headed to Breckenridge (a ski town here in CO) to go through a castle made out of ice with the kids and a friend.
*March 15 my good friend gets baptized and I hope to travel to TX to be there for it.
*March 25 FREEDOM
*March26 I hope to have a date lol
Thanks as always for listening to my blah, blah, blah woo is me life story and thank you to all who still read and comment on my memoir.  You inspire me to keep going, especially now as it is most difficult and at the points my life felt the most out of control, leaving my vulnerable and hurt.  Love you all!