Through The Grape Vine

I received some information this week from a friend.  Word got back to me that some eight or nine months ago (so when I was still married and Josh was already living with Tasha) Josh was also dating someone he met at work.  You are probably wondering why I am even bringing this up.  Actually, hearing this, makes me feel better.  You see, although I know I was the best I could be in terms of being a spouse, mother person etc, all the negative abuse flung at me made me feel inadequate.  When your husband leaves you for another woman, you wonder what you did wrong, even though I knew all along it was Josh and his choices.  There was nothing I did to make me responsible for his infidelity. So hearing he had a relationship with another woman, points more truth to that: Josh, even though living with the woman he supposedly loved and left his wife for, still wasn't happy enough to commit, which points to the fact that I was more than enough despite my own failings and that he was obviously searching for something and not contented with much.