Making the Best of it

As you know we were trying to shorten Josh’s contract in order to get out of the Army and move to Colorado where he has a job waiting for him.  We just found out that this will not be possible as we had been led to believe.  That means we will be here until June 8^th which is my husband’s ETS (End time in service) date.  As you can imagine at first I was really disappointed and upset because the job for my husband is now and we have no guarantee it will be held until June.  He can easily get a lower paying possession in June, but this was the opportunity we really thought to be best.  Plus, it is hard to feel like it won’t be wasted time where my husband goes to work doing jobs that are not his own, just waiting out time until we can finally move.  However, once I had a chance to take a step back I was able to feel the calm and peace that I receive when I know a situation or answer is the right one and I had a couple of idea flow into my mind.

As you all know, Josh has been struggling with severe depression, possible PTSD, and possible bi-polar.  He is currently seeing someone for all of this and although slowly, he is making small steps of progress.  He made a strong trusting connection with his counselor, something that does not come easily for Josh, making her an ideal resource to helping our situation.  A resource that could very easily shape the future of our marriage and a reason I am more than willing to stay for.

Also, for those of you who read my last post I have been having issues with my breast.  Josh and I have been discussing a breast reduction for years, but know that things have come to a head the seriousness of the problem has propelled me into action.  As of February 1 I will be enrolled in Tricare prime (I had gone off for my pregnancy) at which point I plan on meeting with doctors to start getting referrals so that I can show the medical necessity of a reduction.  IN order to have a breast reduction I have to stop breast feeding for at least six months (so in June).  We will be insured for an additional 90 days after June 8^th, making this a real possibility.  I hate that I may have to stop breast feeding, but relieved at the thought that I might finally have an answer to the problems that have been plaguing me.  I will know about the possibilities of this after my first meeting with the doctor, so now that is the new information I am waiting for.

So although this is not the situation I was hoping for, I still know it is the right situation.  I love you all and all your support!