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Wednesday, May 28, 2014

My blog!

This is not a public forum, this is my blog and my journal as it has been for the last four years. If you do not like what I have to say, don't read it! Imagine that! Unlike josh, I am nit posting hate for everyone to read. You actually have to look me up to get to this blog which is supposed to be read by my friends. I will post the emotions I am having as I always have. I find is disgusting that Josh's fling and her family feel the need to read everything I write. I am well aware my marriage was not in good shape even before she spread her legs to him, but that act was disrespectful to me and my entire family. True character would have had her wait until josh was man enough to ask for a divorce. As for the comment that was left and that I deleted. You are right, people do change and she is just as much a child of God as me or anyone else and I am working on forgiveness, but that is awfully hard when I get nasty messages from josh and other aspects of my life that she is involved in. This is how I have always aired my emotions to get them out and let them go and you all are only fueling my anger by attacking me as if she were the victim in this. If she really wanted to be my friend she could have talked to me long ago rather than lying to me about her relationship with josh and promising to back off and give us the space we needed.  I am very aware of what josh initiated, but she needs to take responsibility to.  Just as I have.  I made mistakes in my marriage and I am not a perfect person, so let me try and be the best person I can without your constant interfearance.  I am allowed to be hurt and th things I have said are how I see the truth on my end, which may or may not be fair, but give me the opportunity to say my piece. I could have said a lot meaner things, bullying would be calling her a whore or worse, but how is me saying she used to use drugs in high school and sleeping with a married man abuse when it is fact? Bullying is harassing me when all I want is to move on and I do that by letting go of all this anger and hurt you all keep perpetuating! Don't like what I have to say? Then stop reading my blog!!

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  1. Calling her trash a floozy and brining up her hurtful past is bullying! People who are your friends and read this know her! Who cares what she did as a child?! Feel hurt no one says you can't talk or vent but you are slandering her to people who may know who she is and that's not ok

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  3. I have never used her full name so they only people who know who it is, are people who already know her, I can post her full name if you would like.

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  4. I know of some people that have two blogs - one public that anyone can read and one private that only subscribed people can read. I know it's not ideal, but maybe those posts that you really don't want certain people to read, but do want your friends to read, could go on a private blog, while other posts such as your memoir could stay public. Just a thought, if it doesn't work for you then no worries. :)

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  5. And how is what you are doing not harassing me? You don't have to read this. I am not giving out her name and telling people to abuse her. I am posting how her choices affected my life and I am entitled to my feelings. I am sorry you are so hurt, but I have the right to feel used and abused by her. Believe or not, she isn't the victim in this scenario when she made choices of her own

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  7. Isn't or wasn't Brad married when you started seeing him?

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    1. Not that I have to explain this to you, bust brad and I have always been friends. While brad and I hung out I was in constant communication with his wife as to what she was comfortable with and often hung out the three of us. I never so much as entertained ideas of dating brad and did not kiss him until after he was divorced. Even then, that is all there has been. A kiss. I never lied to his wife or snuck around as my friendship with him was nothing to hide.

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  8. Harassing you? You have a right to feel how you want. But your post are causing her to be harassed. Your blog is public if I feel that people should know you are saying lies I should be able to make a comment on them. I was by her side when she was talking to Josh she fully believed he was living apart from you. It started ad just innocent friendship when you told her to back off she tried but then he told her it was over! None of that even matters with or without her involved you and Josh would be over don't you see that? You can have anger whatever you need to feel but why say untrue things? She is no whore and her past issues have nothing to do with the kind of mother she is. I'm not saying she went about things the right way at all but you are doing wrong too

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    1. How am I posting lies? I have not said anything other than she slept with a married man and used to use, both true statements. I never said she was not a good mom, but she is not someone I trust my children with and to be fair I don't trust my children alone with josh either. Tasha just now contacted me and maybe after her months of silence we can work something out, but she had to know he was married when she moved in with him as he was still coming home to me and my parents house every night.

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  9. The lies about her character. She isn't a skank, floozy, whore, trash and all the other demeaning things you call your on your blogs

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    1. I never called her a skank or a whore, but I did call her loose and a floozy and can't you even attempt to see that from my side when she was sleeping with my husband? I even told josh I was open to talking with her so that I could be comfortable with her, but he didn't want to.

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    2. I absolutely can see it from your eyes. I was in the situation when I pregnant. But the difference is I knew the girl knew because she used to be my friend she knew how to draw him away and was a loose floozy whore ect. I'm glad you said she contacted you because obviously in my opinion there are a lot of lies she's been told to and they need to light.

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  10. You do not know what she was told bottom line! You were both lied to it wasn't her job to investigate. When they lived together he slept there. He'd say he had to go see the kids and that he'd be back and he always did come home. I know this woman and can tell you she wouldn't have been ok with you thinking you still were going to work out. She believed you were separated and over just waiting for divorce. In today's culture it's not uncommon to begin a relationship with someone who is separated when you know they're getting divorced

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    1. How is that okay? That is still adultery even if we were separated? Believe it or not, I have no enjoyment from arguing with you. She is the one who even when realizing he was married continued on with her actions without even an apology. She made her choices despite what she was told or believed. Why do you even read my blog? I don't see why friends or family with her fell the need to read her boyfriends ex wife's blog

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    2. I read your blog because it was shown to me before my someone when Tasha was first being attacked. I kept silent because you had rights to feel how you felt and it wasn't my business but the picture you are painting of her isn't ok. She fell in love with him she was told that you were over. No one ever said she did no wrong. You were entitled to feel and post everything but it got out of control now with your last few post. I read your blogs because you are a talented writer and also because I look out for my friend and if I she needs to be aware of that she otherwise may not know

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    3. Well that's the difference between us. I know josh has been posting filth about me on Facebook, but don't want to hear or know about it. I have always tried to make it clear there are multiple sides to every story including mine, or did you ignore those blogs? I am not trying to spread hate, only move on from the abuse I received from josh for years. I too am glad she finally contacted me as her sending josh after me has only made situations worse

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  11. Cherish.

    The girl is a whore. She doesnt deserve your time after destroying your family. If for no other reason, stop posting about that walking trash because she is not worthy of space in your mind or words. Nor are those who defend her. Please stop making yourself look hysterical by arguing with them. Rise above.

    Josh did you wrong. He treated you in the worst possible way, and as your ex he deserves nothing. Out of respect for Amellia and Dorian, though, you need to find a way to think and speak charitably of him. My parents divorced when i was young, one tried to keep me from the other, and ive grown up distant and resentful of both. Please - try to find good things about him and focus on those even when he only shows his evil side.

    Love always mama

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