Another hard night tonight.
I am fighting some depression and more than ever I am just tempted to
give in and give up. Yet, this will
never happen as I have two beautiful children who count on me daily, which
means no matter how much I am splitting at the seams, I need to hold it
together. I just want to feel alive; to
feel like I am not just surviving, but living.
I am at the point where I have no idea how to fill my cup or recover
from all that I feel is lost.
i get it i don't remember what it is like to have a full cup nothing i do fills mine and when i think it is getting full it feels as if there is a hole in it that as soon as it fills it is drained
ReplyDeleteI hate that you are feeling that way. I wish all the long-distance hugs and kisses would do it, but I know they don't. I love you with all of my heart. You are a wonderful sister and an even better mother. I want to be just like you when I have kids of my own. You have always had a difficult life, but you are ALWAYS an example to at least me and I only see your beauty and strength continue to grow. I would be nowhere without my big sister.
ReplyDeletethank you Brianne, I needed those words.
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