Tonight is sadness.  I feel like I have been doing pretty well, holding things together during the day to then sort through the quagmire of emotions I have within me at night.  Tonight though, there is only one emotion and its heaviness is surprising.  This is my life.  27 and this is where I stand.  For those of you who ever read my story, you know there was another option besides Josh while I was dating.  Tonight I have indulged in the what if game and while choosing that other person would not at all have been an easier life, it would be one where I know I would at least still be loved by this individual.  Tonight the mortal side of me yearns to be held and loved.  No, no regrets about my choices and my past, but what if tonight I didn’t have to be alone.  What if tonight I could be someone’s special someone.