dissapointment

So the doctor did not have me pick a cup size as he showed me the natural crease under my breast and said "natural" it to that crease and not over.  He assumed natural for me would be a C...went bra shopping today and after being measured and after trying everything on I am a 36D (and a larger D rather than a smaller D) I now have two bras and I am still super excited, but scared.  I grew after having each child and still want more children, but I just can't do anything over a D again. sigh. still super emotional and sore and blah blah blah. should probably just go to sleep and be grateful for all I have.  Goodnight.