Ok it’s not really a pain in my butt, but its close. The last two days I have been having severe
contractions in my lower back. The
contractions themselves aren’t serious enough to go into the hospital for, but
the pain they are causing me is immense! For those of you who are unaware, eight years
ago I was in a car accident in which I shattered my L1 vertebra. I had two major back surgeries to place four
pounds of titanium in my spine to help me live a normal life. Even after eight years, there are some days
(especially the rainy ones) that I suffer from acute back pain. So when I say I have been having back contractions
the pain feels as if it literally squeezing me to death. Seeing as pain is something I have had to
deal with for a while now, I have a lot of pain management techniques, but once
it hits a certain threshold (as it did last night) there is nothing to do but
feel miserable and helpless.
I am now thirty three weeks pregnant and quite large, that
sleeping is already a difficult task as I attempt to turn from side to side,
but with the additional pain, the simple act of rolling over was enough to send
me into tears. Frustrated, I decided I
would sleep in my recliner as that would eliminate the need for me to switch
side, but even the act of sitting up took more than five minutes as every
movement sent shooting pain up my tender spine.
There really is no way to describe the pain, other than saying that when
I stood I felt as if I would collapse the pain was so severe. Of course I knew this was something I would
have to deal with during pregnancy, but up until this point it has been manageable
and it makes me fear the seven weeks I have remaining. For those of you who do understand the type
of pain I am describing, I apologize as that is something I would not wish on
my worst enemy.
It’s hard that when things wear you out physically, they tend
to drain you mentally and emotionally as well.
So here is hoping for the strength to finish off this pregnancy with high
spirits and a good attitude. What are
some of the trials (mental, physical, emotional, etc) you have had to overcome
during a pregnancy?
my heart goes out to you, cherish! i'm not free everyday bc of work, but usually mon-wed-fri are less hectic and i could take dorian for you for a few hours during the day. plmk when would be best to relieve you from some mommy duties! my first and last pregnancies were the most trying. the first bc of twins...terrible sickness while working, a month of bed rest, and then preterm births at 31 weeks, which required a month hospital stay for them..half at 2 seperate hospitals. not all bad though...great recovery time for my body and plenty of sleep before they came home :) the last pregnancy bc it was a surprise and took some wrapping the brain around it. i had extreme hunger and awful mood swings! i couldn't even stand for my own children to touch my arm. :( it made me feel like a terrible wife and mother. pregnancy is hard, and yet, one of the most wonderful experiences in my life. i'll continue to pray for you to withstand all in your path! love ya! laura
ReplyDeleteLaura, I hope you know how awesome of a person I think you are and it means so much to me that you would offer to help me out on top of your already full and busy house. I will let you know if I am in need, but many times I have a hard time addmitting to myself that I need help. I can't even imagine the stress of preterms as that has always been such a great fear of mine, that whether you admit it or not, you are a very strong woman and it means so much that you always read and respond to my emotional outbursts :)
DeleteAww thanks! :) I understand not asking for help, I'm the same way. It's just hard, but I have gotten a wee but better at it through the years. :)
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