Next Step

Josh has known I have been planning in leaving and yet nothing has changed.  He still ignores me, saying very little and we go about our business only to do the same thing the next day.  He keeps promising change and keeps avoiding all work and feelings.  I laid out a couple of things that were necessary for my marriage that were non-negotiable and he hasn’t been able to meet these needs.  Therefore, I will not settle for less than what I deserve or what my values require.  Therefore after all the talk and chances, I have decided to leave with my two children.  I guess this means my husband and I are now separated and the ball as always is in his court.  He can either take action and make the change he has been promising or he can give up, but either way I will have the answer I have been waiting for, for all these long months.  I still love him, believe it or not, but I do not love the relationship or life we are living.  I am still hoping for some sort if miracle and radical turn around, but I am starting to prepare for the opposite.  I have tried it all, but there is no way to preserve a relationship that has no trust, equality, respect, or love.  No matter how much of these items I pour into the relationship, it matters not, unless he contributing as well then it is lost.  I can only hope that my marriage doesn’t have to end after only 6 ½ years, but I have nothing else to offer.  Prayers for strength and clarity would be appreciated.  I have appointments until the 19^th of this month, so I will be only an hour away at my uncles house to be able to meet these appointment and wait for my mom who offered to help me move back home.