29

Today was one of the better birthdays I have had in a while.  It was simple laid back, and spent with those I care about and love.  I am blessed to have friends and family who reach out and show their love for me.  I think what I want to really write about tonight though isn't about getting older, but viewing the progress of my life within the last year.  Last year, around this time is when Josh started his physical affair with Tasha.  I had just started my cake decorating classes and my journey to weight loss.  I was depressed and disheartened, but determined to find myself as I started focusing on me.  Only a couple months later did I learn about the adultery which really propelled me into a more determined state of mind.  If you couldn't tell, I have eased up on the gym and the self talk of building myself up as now viewing myself a year later, I am very happy with where I am at.  Of course there are still things about myself I want to work on and will continue to do so, but it is nice to see myself, like myself and no longer worry about how other people view me as I just don't care.  I know who I am and am blessed to finally be moving on.  I spent my day with Matt and the kids and the sweet dedication and acts of kindness shown to me is a constant reminder of how life can be and a blessing as I remember the hurt and depression of so long ago.  28 was a tough year.  It was hell and it sucked. 29 is hopeful and already happy, so Happy Birthday!