kick

Josh got to feel the baby kick for the first time last night.  That was very exciting for both of us and it was nice to have that bonding moment.  I hope that solidified the realness of this pregnancy for him.  I know what a relief it is to me to feel movement.  The last day or so has gone pretty well.  Last night we began to outline our expectations.  For example, I will no longer expect Josh to read his scriptures or even believe in God, but since I am willing to compromise on National Guard or the Reserves Josh is willing to compromise coming to church with us on Sundays to help me out with the kids and if I plan Family home evenings he will participate with the kids.  I know we have a long way to go, but I feel like my husband actually sees us again.  Maybe the thought of actually losing us was the wakeup call he needed, but now I feel as if we are both trying to fix our marriage.

I won’t be posting for a couple of days since we will be attending a family reunion and I have never been so excited!  My entire family (immediate) will all be there so this will be the first time we have all been together in two years.  It will also be such a relief to have mom and dad there so if maybe for an hour or two I can feel like I am the one being taken care of and worry free.  I also can’t wait to show off my growing belly.  Hugs to  you all, the prayers have been blessing our lives and I can’t thank you enough!