not much of an update

Tomorrow Josh tells me for sure whether or not he wants a divorce or if he is willing to continue to try and work on our marriage but after talking last night he let me know he was leaning more towards divorce.  So I am pretty confident that will be the outcome.  I will stay in TN until the baby is born since all my pregnancies are so high risk and I have a great doctor who is aware of everything that it wouldn’t be fair or comfortable to try and start over mid pregnancy with someone else.  Once Josh finally verbalized divorce is the option he wants then we will probably put in paper work for separation.  He will go live on post while I remain living here in Clarksville and at that point we can begin the process of separating bank accounts, titles, etc.  Plus, if Josh chooses divorce, being Army he will probably only see his children once, maybe twice a year that this time of separation will help me transition our son into the absence of his father.  After I deliver we will then file for divorce and start our lives over apart, living the separate lives I guess we have been trying to live together.