ME

Tonight I went out and treated myself.  I spent $100 on myself and I cannot even tell you the last time I indulged like that.  As I am now down another pant size (went from 18 to 14 now) I bought a new pair of jeans, a new pair of workout clothes, new eye shadow and new eye liner. I feel good.  I feel attractive. I feel like more than just a mom.
Oh and I was hired to make another cake for Dec14, so things are certainly keeping me busy.  What a blessing to not advertise and have friends come to me to allow me to use my talents and to help buffer the little income I am receiving from Josh.
Met with a lawyer and went over divorce paperwork, she was impressed with how much I had done and that it was done correctly.  she gave me some great advice on what was needed to be finished and other tools I was not aware of.  It was such a relief as I am close to having things set up that as soon as my breast reduction is done this should hopefully be a smooth process. Josh and I even went over custody and decision making and he gave it ALL to me.  This is exactly what I wanted, but was also sad to see how easily it is for him to just walk away from his children.  So it was a blessing, but one that also broke my heart.
All of my friends out there and all of you reading this; you are what is helping support me and keep me positive through all of this.  It is easier to move on knowing I have the support I do as well as having people to make me accountable and love me.  What a blessing to know I am not alone.  I love you all.  I know this is rushed, but duties of a single mom call.