I am currently working on wrapping all the Christmas present I have, presents I began collecting starting the day after Christmas last year, which helps make it affordable as well as fun as I have many small present that the children get to open slowly over the month. Anyway, I am working on getting them wrapped and it feel weird to me when I only write my name (Mom) on it as to who it is from and it breaks my heart. To be honest, I have always been the one to plan, shop, wrap, decorate, encourage, etc but Josh was always there in the background and always got credit. It is a new experience claiming the work and the joy on their faces all for myself: an accomplishment of my own.
It is so easy still to see all the ways I am failing as a parent, but this, giving them a Christmas as if nothing changed, watching the way they learn and play and encouraging such in the things they receive is such a blessing to me and I am grateful I have been able to pull this all off despite the stress, time, lack of money etc.
God is good.
You are not at all failing as a parent. In my opinion, you are doing a damn fine job of it. :)
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