Thank you for this gift

Well as you all know Josh and I are going through a divorce.  Due to many of his choices, the children and I do not always receive the money we are supposed to.  You can imagine the stress this puts on me as Christmas rolled around.  I am very blessed to be living with my parents and all the emotional, physical, and economic support they have offered us, but there are times it is hard to make my budget stretch to provide as best I can for myself and my children.
The bishop from my church became aware of my situation and set something up so that four families helped donate their love, friendship, and money to reaching out to my broken little family as we faced this Christmas under new circumstances.  I have always been one who has a hard time accepting help, but accepted the fellowship for what it was: the true meaning of Christmas.  What a beautiful gift for my children to see how many people loved them and who were willing to give them toys that were important to them.  What a gift to let them see service in action and hopefully recognize we are never meant to be alone.  I hope they see it is okay to accept help when offered to hopefully one day, return it in kind to someone else.
Christmas was truly a blessing this year as the things donated were beautifully wrapped and more then I could give to my children, and even more, it was a blessing to get the gift cards I did to finally be able to afford the things I have been putting off as I just didn't have the money.  Tomorrow I go in for my reduction and I have a greater sense of comfort knowing I now have a way to buy new bras and clothes that I have made work as long as I can, but just don't fit anymore.  What a beautiful gift for me, to finally feel like I can put myself right and be the beautiful daughter of God I know I am.
There just aren't words enough for these four families who gave us the things were in need of as well as items that will enrich our lives as we start this new year a member shorter, yet stronger.
I try so hard to keep my composure, to fight the tears that always seem to be inside and I know I come off sometimes as aloof and cold. I hope with all of my heart you see the tears of joys this gift has filled me with as I think back on what a blessing this was for us this year.