This last general conference there was a talk in how
sometimes our trials prepare us for future trials and looking back on the many
I have had in the past several years I was able to make a list of how they have
all prepared me for this: my husband leaving me, becoming a single mom to a one
and three year old.
*With my car accident, when going through serious bought of
depression I prayed day and night to find an answer as to why I had survived
and I received an answer. I had survived
because I was meant to be a mom; I found my sense of purpose.
*Then I was told I would never have kids; this devastating trial
of trying to conceive year after year, only magnified the blessing that
children were and gave me years of preparation to come to an understanding of
the divinity and task children were. Due
to this trial, I learned to put children and their importance first.
*I finally get pregnant and then Josh deployed. I raised my son all by myself as a first time
mother for the first six months of his life, proving to me I can be a single
mother and while not the optimal solution, I did not need a partner to meet the
needs of and raise my children. It also
taught me what life was like without a constant companion, and while difficult,
I managed.
*When we lost everything in the fire I didn’t see how
anything positive could come from that, but with the insurance money, I paid
off my car, which is a huge blessing as otherwise I would have already had to
have sold it by now with the little income I receive from my estranged husband.
You have such an incredible outlook. I had no idea you've been through so much these last few years. I'm so glad you posted the link to your blog; I'm so blessed to know you, even from afar. And even though I'm a terrible keep-in-touch-er, I hope I can do better in future!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard being a single mother. I can definitely attest to that. Although our situations and circumstances are different, I am always here if you need someone to talk to.
ReplyDeleteIt seems that you are fairly close to your family, and this is a very good thing. Hold onto them and everything you have already learned and I'm sure you will be just fine.
When you are put in situations you never pictured yourself in is when you really learn more about yourself and the strength you already have within you.
This doesn't mean that there won't be times you break down and need someone to lean on. I am learning that this is not a sign of weakness, it is a strength that you have someone else to rely on.
Just be the awesome mom that you are to those sweet kids of yours and work hard, and things will find a way of working out. It might not be like you planned, but it can still be beautiful.
Stay strong :)
Thank you so much Holly. You have no idea how much what you wrote means to me! Trying to figure things out as I go
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