Get Away

In High school my insecurities dictated who I was, that many a time I feel I blended in with the crowd rather than standing out as I crafted who I was.  These insecurities and my adolescent depression often made me wonder who would care if I died?  Who would show up at my funeral?  Who would know who the real Cherish was?  Luckily I have had time to mature and my thoughts are now a lot less macabre.  I no longer wonder who would miss me; instead I wonder how the people I know and love would manage without me (see that switch from insecure to cocky).  I guess what really brought this thought to mind was the week I had last week.  Josh was out in the field for training all week so as many of you know I was stuck at home on mom duty 24 hours a day with my 22 mo old son, despite the fact I was on bed rest.  I was really worried that I would not be able to do everything myself and my physical limitations would cripple my ability to mother my son as I was the only one to provide for us.  I am happy to say that although it was a pretty awful week, I survived it and it reminded me of everything I can do and am willing to do to stretch myself.  I felt disappointed when my husband would call and say he understood how difficult this was for me.  I know he meant nothing by it, but it really frustrated me as one he would never know what it was like to be pregnant, but even more importantly, he had never spent one full bay with the child by himself, let alone a week.  He is used to the physical fatigue his job demands but I feel he is unaware of the emotional fatigue staying at home with a toddler can be day after day.  So this made me wonder: what would happen if I just disappeared for a weekend?

My son turns two in October and since his birth I have only left him overnight twice:  once to go out with my husband after he returned from deployment and once when I was in the hospital with my miscarriage.  After talking to my mom, I am thinking I might be due for a third night out before our new addition arrives.  I think this will allow Josh the personal one on one time with our son that our child just adores while giving Josh a little more of a taste of what life as a housewife is.  It is not that he is unappreciative of what I do, but I feel it will be a learning experience for him as well as a welcome break for me.  One issue…I have nowhere to go or nothing to do and as I stated earlier I have a lot of physical restraints.  So basically, I want a 1-2 day vacation that I could do on my own that would be the rejuvenation that I need.  I just have no idea what to do though!  What would be a dream come true for you?  If you had 1-2 days by yourself (away from the house) where would you go, what would you do?  Help me decide so that I can make this happen!