What….I am a mom?!!!!!

There is a possibility that this is pregnancy brain, but in my discussions with other women I have come to think that many women have this same moment.  Yesterday I was a mom all day.  I got up with the kid, changed his diaper, dressed him, got him breakfast, played with him, put him down for his nap, fed him lunch, entertained him, made dinner and then my husband laid him down for bed.  I sat downstairs and crocheted for a couple of hours before I decided to turn in and as always, checked on my little man as he slept.  I could tell he was restless so I went in and sat by his bedside.  I gave him his water cup and was stroking his hair to comfort and calm him and all the sudden this moment hit me.  I was overfilled with joy and love and tried to remember how I got here.  How did this sweet little boy make it into my heart and arms?  How is it that after nearly two years it still surprises me that I am a mom? 

I think these quiet and powerful moments are the validation and encouragement that we are indeed doing something great with our lives.  Maybe this is the self deprecating side of my personality, but I always wondered what good my life was.  What difference could I make with what little I have?  There is nothing like a child to stretch your potential and give you a purpose as daily you are forced to live outside of your own wants and desires as you cater to someone else.  I also think these moments emphasize how much time has passed since our own childish carefree ways and should also serve as a reminder to still be true to ourselves.  Let me explain.  Although being a mom is the most important job in the world (in my opinion) we need to keep ourselves fulfilled by striving for our own personal goals to stay mentally happy and open to the service we render.  I was discussing this last week with some very lovely ladies and it made me own the goal I have been procrastinating: to publish a book. 

I don’t think my skills are where they need to be and the story may now be an attention grabber, but what better way to practice and work toward my goal than to finally finish this project of my memoir that I have been working on for years.  That’s the main reason I have been posting it to my blog.  Once I run out of material I have finished I will feel obligated and driven to finally add to my story.  I love the opportunities we all have to be moms and still be something more than what we are.  I have met so many talented women and encourage everyone who reads this (mom or not) to post a comment on a goal (short or long term) that you feel makes you who you are.  Sure love all you talented ladies!